ABUSE/WEIGH IN!!!!!!
Feb 12, 2020
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GloNGG7M-9M

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halfway through your week day happy
Wednesday
today has one's day worrying so I do
want to put that clip in right here
so as you heard yes I have lost three
pounds this week which is good it's good
I am totally down with three pounds
especially like I explained to you guys
a couple of days ago I had a binge and
so having that binge I'm glad that I was
able to get right back on track and make
up a couple of days so I still had a
loss rather than a gain or a standstill
I do want to clarify though I did see in
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my someone had brought it to my
attention that I was accusing people of
you guys causing me to binge and I
absolutely want to say that that is not
the truth at all I fully take
responsibility for my binge I will not
ever accuse anybody of being the
responsible person for my bench it is my
responsibility to make the action to
binge circumstances can play a part in
it absolutely but it's my choice to fall
into the temptation and choose to do the
relapse that's my part so I can't say
that oh it's your fault that I benched
that is my fault what I do with the
situation is my choice and I allowed it
to affect me and that's not okay but I
learned from it and I learned that
binging clearly didn't get me anywhere I
was able to dust my my knees off get
back up and I didn't allow it to keep me
down normally when I would binge I would
just keep repeating that over and over
and over because I would just say you
know what okay I ate some donuts shoot
you know what I'm just gonna keep eating
them and eating them and every day go by
I'm gonna keep repeating this binge day
and day and day and before I know it I'm
completely off track and I've completely
through my whole eating process out the
door but this time around I didn't do
that in fact I got up the following
morning and I well it wasn't
the following morning it was still even
that day that I you said know that I'm
not going to allow this binge right now
that I'm that I'm dealing with affect
the rest of my day
and I ended up doing pretty well the
rest of the day after I got out of that
binge and the rest of the week I you
know was able to continue doing what I
needed to do to finish my my journey for
this week so losing three pounds was a
victory for me especially because I
didn't think I was gonna lose anything
in fact I thought I would have gained
but here I am I lost so I'm happy
what else did I want to talk about
another thing that I wanted to bring up
to you guys today is kind of a damper to
the beginning of my my week for going
into my next week of weight loss it's
kind of a sad it's a sad time when you
have people coming at you and calling
you an abuser because you are trying to
take care of your children in a manner
that you see fit for yourself
I have very well been notified I have
been shown I have been messaged I have
been emailed I have seen it a hundred
times the video that has been rolling
around and I'm the one that made it so I
know what y'all are so I'm talking about
I've seen the video of everybody saying
that I beat my daughter now I am going
to talk about this briefly for just a
few minutes this will be the one and
only time that I talk about this and I
will never speak upon this again because
I really don't feel I should even have
to speak upon it at all because I don't
owe an explanation to anybody for how I
raised my children the way that I choose
to raise my children that is my choice I
don't go into your home I don't tell you
how you raise your children yes I am
aware that I put myself out there on
YouTube and yes I am aware that I put
myself out there with my children I get
and I know that there are thousands of
eyes watching me every single day I
completely understand that but what I
don't understand is how somebody can go
from punishing their child to being
called an abuser when for one there's no
video showing physical harm being done
to a child to one be even accused of
that too to even have it being talked
about I have heard everything from I
beat my daughter in the face I beat my
daughter on the hand I mean nobody there
are so many stories and accusations
going out there that now it's just
become it honest-to-god has come to be
funny to me because it really shows me
now how stories have started and how
they can run around and rumors start and
they're just growing and growing and
growing and the what even is even more
sad as that this video was a year ago
like if you guys honestly think about it
whoever started this whole thing
literally had to dig deep deep down to
find a video of me supposedly beating my
child and put it up as a as a video that
I've just put up today ok now I will
raise my child like a parent you are
first a parent then you're a friend I am
NOT raising my children
excuse my language to go out in this
world and be assholes I think that's
part of this world's problem with all
the people that are going out making the
choices that they do and destroying
things and acting like little hoodlums
it's because parents have now become
more friends than they have become
parents parents have become so scared in
their own homes to to even punish their
children because they don't know what
someone's gonna say about it
I don't walk in fear to take care of my
children if I see fit that I need to
raise my voice at my child you're darn
right I
raise my voice at my child am I going to
demeanor them and am I going to lower
their self-esteem absolutely not do I
call them names absolutely not but if I
have to raise my voice to make sure that
I am heard and that I am they know what
that I'm serious
absolutely absolutely and I will not
apologize to that if I have to get up
and I have to place a pat on the butt
to show them hey mom serious absolutely
I did not beat my child I gave her a tap
on the butt and that was it
any child that gets even a tap on the
butt a hand anything even if you yell at
a child they cry because they are that's
just a that's just a baby a child a
young child not a baby because she was
older than that they're sensitive so
they cry so it doesn't matter what you
do to them they're gonna cry even if I
did spank her more than one tap that is
my choice that is my prerogative that is
my choice I am her mother nobody else
but me and like I said I'm raising
children to go out into this world and
be something I am raising children to go
out into this world and help this world
become something better there's other
parents out there that are raising their
children to become little assholes that
it's never gonna balance itself out and
that's pretty sad that is really sad but
the thing that this is my point bringing
this up I am very aware of the video
going around I've seen it like I said I
made the video did I mean to leave that
part in the video no but was I afraid to
leave that part in the video no I didn't
do anything wrong I'm not ashamed of it
it would be the same thing if I was in
the store and she was blood squirrel
screaming in the store I woulda tapped
her bike it doesn't matter where I'm at
if my child is gonna disobey they're
gonna get a call
secuence you know and a lot of times we
will start with timeouts first before we
even move into a physical punishment
which is she was already see and that's
just said as you guys didn't even know
what had happened prior to me going out
and tapping her but she was in her
timeout chair prior to that because she
was screaming then she came and
approached me and started screaming even
more so then that's when I got up and I
tapped her bottom and I said go sit down
no ma'am we don't scream like that why
is that wrong there's nothing wrong what
I did but of course everybody's gonna
make it to be something bad because
people want to make it something bad and
I can't help that I can't control what
people do all I can do is control what I
can do and that's it what others think
I can't control what others do I can't
control but what I do I can control and
what I say I can control that's it I
can't do anything more than that and
here's the thing I have had multiple
people say and I've even had phone calls
made to me that people are turning me
into CPS I am NOT walking in fear with
CPS I have already done my part which is
I already have a case with my police
department they already know what's
going on on my side with YouTube and
they have already seen the video on my
side and the police officer even said to
me as it already is there's nothing to
worry about
he said there's nothing wrong in this
video so I'm not sitting here in fear
wondering if the state's gonna come out
or not if they come out I already have
my case number and she'll contact the
police the police officer that I already
contacted and it will all be taken care
of so as much as everybody wants to say
that oh you're gonna get in trouble
you're gonna have your children taken
away I am NOT sitting here in fear
because it's not gonna happen
now like I said this will be the last
time that I am going to address the
subject I don't care how much this vid
yo continue are not this video but the
other video continues to surface around
YouTube if it makes people happy to
continue to keep talking about a parent
taking care of their child so be it go
ahead it's not hurting my feelings at
all I think it's sad again like people
like I've said before that people are
dragging parents from taking care of
their children and making sure that they
are learning their manners but again
like I said there's more parents out
there trying to be friends with their
children than being parents and that's
probably what's wrong with this world
but other than that I have nothing more
to say I will continue to move on with
my channel I'm going to continue doing
what I have been doing all along I am
NOT Dibble dabbling into drama I am NOT
going to be sitting here trying to
direct my videos to any one certain
person because you know what I could
care less what anybody thinks about me
if you don't like me too bad if you like
me thank you if you don't want to be
here on my channel because you don't
like what you see go away don't watch me
but I can't control what you do but
again I can control what I do on my
channel and that is I'm not going to
continue this drama because it's tiring
not only is it tiring but it's taking my
vision away from what I'm working on and
that's my health my health comes before
any of this garbage and you guys the
ones that are bringing up all this drama
all you guys are trying to do is get my
eyes off of my my journey and my goal
and put it on something else so I won't
match my goal and you guys are trying to
make me stumble so I don't get what I'm
trying to do which is lose my weight and
get healthy you would rather keep me
stuck over here in the dark side
focusing on things that I don't need to
even focus on and guess what it's not
gonna happen it's not gonna have you're
not gonna win as much as you try it's
not gonna win
I'm not gonna let you I'm gonna continue
like I said working on myself my
channels gonna stay as drama-free as
possible to all of my normal subs normal
subs loyal subs ones that like to watch
my channel thank you for being here
I so appreciate it don't read the
comments please because most of them are
vile right now because that's the only
place that these people know to go so
just don't even don't even go there with
it I'm sorry it has come to that but I
don't know what else to do
I can't I can't help it I have
deactivated my Instagram I do want to
let everybody know my Instagram is gone
at this point I don't know if I'm going
to put another Instagram up if I do it's
probably going to be used just for
strictly immediate family because I
think I need one social media outlet
where I can just share things with my
family and keep things a little bit you
know a little bit more private for a
little while and see where things go
from there but I don't know when that's
gonna happen right now I just think that
me kind of lessening some of the social
media places and platforms is probably
the most healthiest thing for me right
now mentally and emotionally and again
like I said focusing on this right now
on my health not on this drama but
focusing on my channel and focusing on
my goal is the number one key for me
right now
my family and me are so focused on my
goal we don't have time to focus on all
this other garbage it's not gonna hold
me down it's not going to make me think
differently it's not going to make me
feel belittled I don't think I'm less of
a person because I punished my child it
doesn't make me less of a person because
I put it out there on YouTube but again
everybody's going to make something
out of it because they want to and
they're trying but you're not going to
succeed so anyways I am going to close
this is the last time that like I said I
will be talking about this from here on
out we will get back to regular showings
and I hope you guys enjoy the rest of
the day tomorrow I will be posting what
I have been eating like little clip it's
of things that I've been eating take
care of you guys and I'll talk to you
tomorrow bye bye